plead the fleeting moment to remain

19022008

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 13:23:33 GMT

i'm tired and i'm jaded and i feel like ranting.

i dont know why i'm so drained when i spent half my day sleeping/stoning in lectures (not that it can be helped with prof rohini and her peepsqueak voice) and gave 50% effort in pbl 1. now i know im being mean but i really can't concentrate in her lectures, it's almost as though my motivation to learn gets sucked out the minute her voice booms over the auditorium speakers.

and today my pbl facilitator said we need to categorize things into those we must know, those we should know and those that are nice to know.

but then there's you and a whole lot of other stuff that doesnt seem to fit into any of the categories.

ahhh i hate being tired cos all this tiredness translates to the start of emo-nemoness. and i jolly well didnt want to post some emo piece of crap as my first post in the year 2008.

then again, sometimes shit happens.

25122007

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 16:35:34 GMT

the lack of updates has made me incredibly rusty when it comes to tinkering with lj props. nevermind, i'll still keep my promise and revive it once in a while :)

so much to say, so much to say, but i'm so lazy to write it all down. -_-''
i'll get down to a picture post soon.

meanwhile, this is an update written 2 months ago when i was in sg for the raya break.
it's a mystery why i didn't publish it back then haha.

sorry if this entry is going to come across as totally self- me. i would have blogged this in private, but at the same time i would like the fact that people i know and care about actually read this and understand (i hope) what i feel like saying or expressing to them sometimes but could not, or have not done so before, either because i was cut short by my devastatingly limited vocab (which is generally the case nowadays - my english is indeed becoming very powderful) or simply because each time i start typing/texting it out, my fingers find the backspace button ~~a few~~ a lot more times than they do when i'm msn-ing or using facebook. backspace..ponder.. backspace. ponder, backspace, backspace..ponder.....backspacebackspacebackspacebackspace. blank.

well i had a really good raya break to start with - caught the bus with jeannie to sg (whom i really appreciate for deciding to take the bus back with me, and for the phone call from the incredibly kind senior who drove us to the bus terminal when we were really freaking late), satisfied my ba chor mee cravings during dinner, swapped my SIM card back to singtel (one i no longer take for granted because now 500 free smses/100 mins free outgoing a month is indeed an incredibly GREAT deal) to see the familiar names and msg styles popping up in my inbox. i was :) when i read the smses - they just gave me a very homely feeling. something that made me feel and believe that we'll all be able to grow up, find our very own paths and yet still get along famously when our paths cross in the future, 10, 20 years down the road. i don't usually get that feeling often, but then again i know it's something i'll work hard to keep/materialise just because i know somehow.. it's right.

so saturday was all planned out and with the help from everybody who was involved, i got to play lan (during which i got n00bed by dota princess grace and dota pros lem&justin) ate sg style 'mamak' read: prata&tehtarik, gripped my floorball stick and actually played floorball - back in VJ hall, and with my favourite floorball kakis no less - and enjoyed a delicious ramen dinner filled with 10-handclaps-per-jumpingjack-stories in what lem calls the happiest vocation NS. (my gut feeling tells me lem is going to be incredibly popular with the young ones during PE). family day on sunday was spent at din tai fung for xiaolongbaos and catching up with my brother (i find myself missing him more nowdays, i do) and off to cityhall with su&ping (where we were totally floored by the gratin & ichigo parfait at pasta de waraku) okay i shall add that i did attempt part of my PBL in the afternoon, but predictably things weren't moving along the way it should be when you spend constructive time on work. and since monday was my last day, my mummy brought me out to shop and have my haircut (one that has provoked my younger cousins to say: "layqueen jiejie, you look very tomboyish") i hope i grow out of it soon cos it dawned on me that the shorter my hair is, the ~~more~~ less time i spend on styling/maintaining it! (generally i don't use combs anymore!) NOOOOOO >.< any-o-how, after my hair-ventures, i met up with slowpig to get xf's pressie and then we headed to hongkong cafe in siglap for beef hor fun and toast in a totally yumcha fashion with the bleaknesses (gst/inflation the culprit has caused the price of my horfun to INFLATE exponentially).

tuesday i got up, got on the bus at 745am and got home by 230pm.
wokay so i continued to genting at night for another 2 days of fun at the peak, but that, shall have to wait. :)

yes and before i forget, MERRY XMAS & HAPPY BOXING DAY *bish!*

none

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 16:52:18 GMT

i've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots.

it's been a while, and of late, days have been less kind(ly) - school work is definitely piling up, even when we only have 2 hours of solid lectures a day and i've been spending more time in the library here than i have ever done in vj/bnss. rwoar. nothing much to update on my part, cause for now life's rather monotonous and my driving is slowly improving though i only drive to and fro school and home (with rare exceptions like today's trip to the ramadhan bazaar for yummy ayampercik/murtabak/rotijohn and to mamak on tues with hoay and barath - who even then had to narrate to me HOW to parallel park) oh yeah/. sigh, when i finally get the courage i'll zoomzoom around town to places like midvalley and berjaya times square in a jiffy. for now, sadly, home and school is my safest bet. i need to keep myself and my car safe :S

on to happier stuff, im finally hooked on DCFC after KJ sent me both their albums. not much of an indie fan, but now let's just say i'm a total addict! also looking forward to the raya break when i'll finally get to meet up with you ppl back in sg (floorball/shopping/meals!!) happyhappy me :D

and maybe because it feels right. right.
baa bahh baa bahh.. this is the sound of settling.

lemon-on-a-stick

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 13:20:07 GMT

two weeks into uni life and i'm starting to feel like i'll be missing it alot when 2.5 years is over.

zoomzooming to and fro between the house and uni is rather unnerving at times, especially at the crazy roundabout, but i'm learning and slowly getting used to driving alone so - all in good time i guess. and lessons have already started, my timetable for sem 1 is incredibly slackkk - 2 hours of lectures every morning in the newly refurbished LT (now it has soft cushy chairs bigger in size than the ones we had in vj auditorium and they always make me SLEEPY!), PBL class on tuesdays which is very similar to focus group discussions BUT with a really young and cute doctor as my group facilitator! haha see the reason why i stress yet again that DGmon mission 1 HQ should be located here? i'm pretty sure by now you all would have heard me gushing about EYE CANDIES in school! happyhappy :D haha okay and so the rest of the day we're basically free to do our own stuff. (alot alot of independent self research and online formatives/learning portals) to cut the long story short, it's relatively honeymoon-ish in mugging terms because some days we end as early as 1015 and there's no end of sem exams for sem 1. not complaining, but then again i like hanging out with my fellow happy3friends so on most days i stay till 2 plus 3 pm. (i'm really happy to have them around cos they remind me of the ones i miss most in sg - you guys know who you are ^^) oh and there's the occasional wetlab/drylab where we get to put on the long white labcoats and look real pro for few hours pricking our lab partners with the lancet. it reminds me of what mr tang (the PE teacher who taught us softball) once said while throwing and catching the softball in a very pro manner: " even if you're not professional, at the very least, make sure you look professional"

yupp so in short,
life is good. :)
i hope it's just as good or even better for you guys back there!

all the world will stop to watch you shine

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 14:06:47 GMT

nyehnyehnyehnyehnyehnyehnyeh X 2.

wahhh i feel like stretching. one hectic week of orientation which included me signing my own death cert, being pelted with paintballs, stripped off my juniors title, getting ragged by seniors, being baked in the sun, taking the KTM to midvalley for the first time, and eating nando's with my kick-ass happy3friends before OWNING M207 orientation on finale night!

champs! wheee i'm one happy contented kid right now. totally looking forward to start lessons!!

p/s: phase 1 of DGmon is going global! just wait till i get the rest of the pictures, then you can see why the HQ should be here. XD hehe.

This is the time,
This is the day that we've been waiting for,
All the world will stop to watch you shine.
...

anyway, it's time for a malaysian invasion cos my country turns 50 today!
everybody say MERDEKA!

one of those days when i miss just about everything

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 15:54:58 GMT

and after playing a round of badminton and a gender biased game of soccer with my cousins,
i declare that;

I MISS PLAYING FLOORBALL A WHOLE LOT.

especially when my stick stays couped up in the corner of the room untouched.
bah and the weekend's here - so, there's 2 days to go.

eh i miss ba chor mee also. whahhaha. XD

haha i got the 4A picture at long last!
now, where's that anything/whatever picture?!?

twang-twang

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 16:14:07 GMT

lo and behold,
i am the uber lappy n00b.

i spent half the day,
wasting my time away,
blindly running system restore(s),
without checking resolution before.

ahh crap. pardon my pathetic stab at poetry/rhyme(s).
i almost, almost got so exasperated with my lappy this afternoon (after the screen mysteriously got 'blown-up' when i finished playing cs - big icons, bigbig webpages, bigbigbig msn convo boxes, everything BIG & enlarged)
so being the pathetic IT illiterate that i am, i thought my lappy was running on safe mode and proceeded to carry out >5 system restore(s).

and by golly, what a folly!
especially when the master (shefong, i love you!) appeared and enlightened me that it was but a screen resolution problem.
a little tinkering here, and a little there, and VIOLA, my same old, same old small sized screen.
i so do need to brush up my tech gadgets/wizardry skills by leaps and bounds.
definitely no joke.

sigh.
and here's a real one.

make your choice, adventurous stranger,
strike the bell and bide the danger,
or wonder, till it drives you mad;
what would have followed if you had.

got that off the chronicles of narnia, which is probably gonna be the last book i finish with the luxury of time.
and boy, i loved every bit of that book!

to end this incoherent post,
i hereby propose a toast,
to zhini who turns nineteenth today;
hoping you'll always be happy&gay! (oops.)

here's wishing you a HAPPY NAUGHTY NINETEENTH, haribo kang(ster)!
ahh and yes, sorry i know my poem sucks. haha :X

of long goodbyes

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 09:37:02 GMT

going, going, gone.

this is gonna be a long one.

yupp and so after the long, amazing week i wished would never end, i am typing this while the aircon's whizzing silently, my fingers working the keyboard and my semi-nude (besides the cap) pig soft toy plus the 05s22 calendar liang made stares from my whiteboard.

moving on as they say, though not a hundred percent ready admittedly, but i am looking forward to kickstart the uni life. there's new people to meet, new places to explore, and a horde of stuff to learn. independence and street-smart-ness are definitely on the list, but there're equally important stuff that tops the list, one being the ability to give myself an answer, a confident one, that this is my plan, and this is exactly what i wanted and what i have in store for myself. somedays, when people ask me about my career choice, my study plans and why, i find myself giving them a (my) well rehearsed answer, one i constantly repeat and modify so that it sounds confident, justified, responsible, mature. i don't know if they realise it, but it's almost as though each time i repeat it, i am justifying it to myself, and no one else but myself. thought i'd gotten over being all emotional and insecure sometime back, but maybe growing up is just hard to do!

any-o-how life is slowly taking shape, routines are popping up everywhere; with driving lessons, visits to the market & carrefour and typing emails taking the main bulk of my time. la-di-da. i guess it's going to be the last idyllic week to come my way before uni starts proper, and i am going to enjoy the simplicity of the week as much as i can. (though rather shamefully, it's not as though i haven't been doing so for the past 8 months) especially when i foresee the return of the Mugging Monster soon, with my dear friend in the 'Artistically Derived Madness' school in ulu-ated ntu telling me that she has since returned, full time, to mugging territory no less. yikes!

on a brighter note, after feeling rather frustrated and disconcerted with the way things worked in malaysia when i first got back, i have managed to convince myself that the rather warped system that m'sia runs on has it's merits too. not an entirely enlightening revelation, but from the very narrow viewpoint of learning driving, there's lots of flexibility which you can (with a little tinkering here and there) put to your advantage. pretty much nothing is black and white here, so it pays to know the system well, cause there're obvious time and monetary benefits awaiting. well to be frank, it took me some time, but i have since learned that there can be no comparison between the system i have gotten so used to in sg (one i now realise i took for granted) and here.

that said, i still am very fond of my country. for i enjoy keeping a look-out for the snacks van (not out of gluttony, mind you!) - hearing the exact same tune looping, catching a glimpse of the exact same uncle in the driver's seat, and see him selling the exact same banana cake for RM 1.50 every evening as he used to 7 years back. for i enjoy the quality time i spend playing BIG 'ka-me-ha-me-ha' and having eraser fights with cousins i rarely saw in the past 7 years. seems like certain things consistently change while others just don't. it's almost as though the waves of time washed over but left this hometown of mine untouched. and there it goes again, the snacks van is here, same old tune blaring over while i'm typing this. :) funny.

weird notion, but somehow i believe that no matter how far we wander, there's always something pulling us right back to the very beginning. words, maybe. ties that bind, maybe. feelings, maybe. memories, maybe. i don't know what it is, but whatever will be, will be. (gosh, i didnt know how cheesy this was until i typed it out) rwoar. and it makes me wonder, about the thoughts that will be going through your minds when you guys finally leave (to aus next year for some of you, and to farther corners of the world in the not so distant future) to pursue the next phase of your lives. would it be the same excitement, anticipation, the same fears, but ten times over maybe? that's assuming that the intensity of the feelings and thoughts share a direct relationship with the distance in which you wander away from home.....then the equation'll be I = kd. okay, well i conjured that up myself. hah. :S

so before i end this really rather cheesy and disjointed post (cheese-ier than the fabulous cheese fondue dip pizza at pizza hut i devoured with the guys last week) i just want to thank everyone of you who took the time and made much concessions on your part just to meet up with me or bid your farewells before i left. it meant alot to me, so THANK YOU.

also, i've been looping a said song introduced to me for this occasion recently on my wmp.
a fitting end - so to say, to let go of the rest.
now maybe i'll be able to come across a happier, brighter, more hopeful one as a sequel.
that, & i'm missing you people big time. :)

whatever it takes

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 06:34:08 GMT

wokay so 4A reunion dinner part II was pretty much like this :

talk take photo talk take photo talk take photo talk take photo talk take photo talk
talktalktalktalktalktalk
eat
take photo take photo take phototakephototakephototakephototakephoto

*okay paisay the group photo not with me so i can't upload it yet :X

wah in short, it was photo monsterkill man! (ah i hope you understand what i'm trying to say)
but i miss you guys already!
hahah & menny i <3 you for your 'secret' :D you totally made my day!
4A lamerz forever more!

...

and the much anticipated end to the harry potter series, i like!
i'm feeling like a HAPPY potter fan now :D

a new look for a new beginning

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 08:37:46 GMT

ah and yes i failed to mention that in my latest bout of rushing-head-first-into-things, (blindly too, may i add) i have effectively condemned myself to at least 2 months of looking like a BOY. sobs. on a happier note, my head feels a whole lot lighter now (they chopped off sooo much hair!) and it'll only be 2 months before my locks grow long again! oh man, it had better be!!!!!!! rwoar.

*burp*
am so full now. we stuffed (possibly overstuffed) ourselves with thick creamy durians that my mum bought just a while ago.
i am so gonna stink up nyny later with the 4A lamerz. *burp*

hey but i do feel a tweeny bit punk-ish with this 'do. WAHAHAHA :D

these little wonders still remain

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 15:51:19 GMT

i feel a little lost.

so i got back late night monday, rested well enough on tues and met up with the girls to buy mabel dinner before she jets off to aussie next week. hope you enjoyed yourself last night & best wishes from all of us with everything that's coming your way! there's that and now there's 2 weeks to look forward to my L license plus try and get myself all psyched up about moving back home and starting uni. not much to tell but i guess i did a lot of growing up the 10 days back home.

they say familiarity breeds contempt, and i fear that its coming true for me. i fear i'm becoming the type of person i try very hard to shy away from in my life. the ones who are mad at everything, angry, frustrated and conceited about everything and nothing. the ones who point their fingers, places the blame but never once at/on themselves. i fear i cannot relate, i fear i'm causing too much trouble, i fear i'm trying to do everything i deem right, the wrong way. and it greatly irks me, this deep, dark insecurity that i have about myself and everything else that crosses my mind.

all around i see my close friends moving on with their lives, that blossoming new phase of life unfurling right in front of their very eyes. the excitement, the anticipation, the people, the places, the dreams & the motivation. like a new jab of life bringing with it the promise of bright shiny happy futures. and while i can't wait for my turn to be so caught up in the same flurry of activities i am equally afraid of what's in store.

i try my best to avoid such thoughts because i detest being overly melancholic. i'd rather be thinking positive, staring face up against the sun. i really do. but i guess everybody has their own set of issues to battle with, and not everyday do they end up victorious.

what a bother!!
and i still feel lost.
sigh.

...

a few random things i find myself missing a whole lot

- the s22 cheer
- skipping GP tutorials to play floorball
- definitely getting high while mass dancing
- planning crazy birthday sabotages with/for the ogls
- mugging in geylang east lib with SMS
- setting up the christmas tree (which was eventually thrown away) loaded with freebies together with cradhoc
- staying back in the now defunct welfare room playing carom

& that smile that always made it easier to be me.

hahhahahha

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 09:13:08 GMT

I am thankful for laughter, except when milk comes out of my nose. ~Woody Allen

* awwwwwwww* so cuteeeeee :D
though the first one really reminds me of the guy in settlers who got us all laughing till we nearly suffocated haha :D

any-o-how i'm feeling very happy and also very nostalgic now because one, my driving is definitely improving (thanks or no thanks to mr 0543), two, i'm heading back for close to 10 days to start my driving lessons back home (exciting!!), and three, i've finally got a listen to lifehouse's new album (the whole album!) on imeem. yay! imeem totally rocks my socks! though the new album sounds pretty much like their previous self-titled album in 2005, one thing's for sure - jason wade's amazing vocals are still simply, the very best i've heard.

and I will walk on water
and you will catch me if I fall
and I will get lost into your eyes
and everything will be alright
i know everything is alright

...

"this is what it feels like : you walk into a room and the door locks behind you, and you spend a little while panicking, looking around for a key or a window or something, and then when you realise that there is no way out, you start to make the best of what you've got. You try out the chair and you realise that it's not uncomfortable, and there's a TV, and a couple of books, and there's a fridge stocked with food. You know, how bad can it be?"

-taken from How to be good by nick hornby

and you start by telling yourself....i can do this, i think. I can live this life.

b - l - e - a - k

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 17:05:09 GMT

another by-product from feeling extremely amused and bleak-ened after uploading the pics from my phone to the com. i saved it as 'farnie'. whahaaha this one's for you two, my beloved royal bleaknesses.

...

so live like you mean it
love till you feel it
it's all that we need in our lives
so stand on the edge with me
hold back your fear and see
nothing is real till its gone

so hold on before its too late
until we leave this behind
don't fall, just be who you are
it's all that we need in our lives

it's all that i need in my life.

i want a chevy too!

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 15:04:18 GMT

wheeeee transformers is THE movie event of the year, or for the month of june/july at the veryvery least!! (cos harry potter and the simpson's movie is coming soon to a cinema near you :)) am so glad we went ahead with the plans for the movie after bomberman in lem's hse because it's worth every single penny!! truth be told i wasn't expecting a super movie of sorts but when everyone else clapped at the end of the movie, the ogls and i were subconsciously doing the same as well!! haha to quote mr beh, it's 5 outta 5 stars man :D maybe after watching it, you'll start viewing cars in a different light, especially chevy ones whahaha!!!

currently very very hyper because i just finished an entire piece of beard papa's cheese cake stick!!! OMG its like the best instant cheesecake fix you can get from beardpapasweets! totally my kind of happy, comfort food!! :) :)

watch transformers ppl!!!!!! it OWNS (together with linkinpark's new album as part of its OST)!!
yayness!!

Writer's Block: Summer Break

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 17:02:02 GMT

logged into lj and i saw this question under the writer's block column: 'How did you spend summers when you were a kid?'

so i thought long and hard about my summers (not that there's really much difference when we're here in malaysia/singapore, cause the weather's pretty much the same with the big bright sun blazing down sweltering temperatures every other day) when i was a kid. so what did i do when i was a kid during summer break? if memory serves me well, then holidays back in primary school were spent playing SEGA (they no longer have this do they?) with my brother at home, going for short trips to waterfalls/islands with my extended family, doing school homework (especially math homework in the thick, brown-paged, yellow-covered buku matematiks ) playing jump-rope(the kind made from stringing lots and lots of 'lubber' bands together)/badminton/the -slipper-mountain-tennis-ball game/pseudo football,rugby with my cousins in my grandparents and my uncle's tiny combined porch and the park! spent so much time there when i was younger playing catching, sitting see-saws and the SWING! i loved the swings there! i guess the wind-in-your-face feeling while imagining that you're soaring through the sky pretty much did it for me. pity they were always the most popular and so very often hogged by the bigger boys. even then chivalry was already a lost cause. rwoar!! ah anyway, back to summer breaks, i shall proceed to my teenage years when holidays were more about work and school than leisure holiday trips with my extended family. sadly we all have to grow up don't we? yeah so june hols = prefectorial board meetings+choir practice+adventure camps+homework in lower sec then in upper sec june hols = student council meetings+choir practice+adventure camps+corn pollinating/planting+more student council meetings. EH i just realised that the question asked about my summer breaks when i was a kid, NOT a teenager. haha so more or less i've veered off course. sian, if this was a gp essay i would have failed it man. rwoar!!

oh wow that means i DID so little stuff during my summer breaks when i was a kid. sounds boring but i've never remembered it as being anything remotely boring. weird stuff. maybe it's because when i was younger i was definitely a happier, though possibly more naive, but easily contented kid. perhaps what we all need is for someone to bring back it all back.

to be fair, growing up ain't all that bad either :)

especially with friends whom effortlessly seem to make everything just that much sweeter in life. :)

...

any-o-how in other totally random and unrelated news, i've finished my 40 episodes of heart of greed! and i totally withdraw my comments on alfred being a two-timing jerk!! he's the perfect example of why everybody deserves second chances in love and in life. that, and why we should never wait forever, because it's always, always too late.

溏心風暴

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 16:27:30 GMT

currently halfway through my 40 episodes of 溏心風暴
the drama (especially the lead actress) is getting my mum and i all teary eyed because there's so much truth in her words
its like it hits right home and tugs at your heartstrings consistently
and i know it sounds absurd, but i think i'm learning how i can be a better person
watching the drama itself
funny isn't it,
when it all comes down,
there's only a faint line (possibly drawn in sand) separating truth from fiction and reality from imagination.

i hope i'll be able to meet someone like her in my lifetime.
someone i can respect, love and trust so deeply that it might just possibly hurt to let go.
hmmm..

let the good times roll yet again

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 10:14:28 GMT

i wanted to post a really long entry about my past week but i was too lazy so i shall try and summarise everything into a more journal friendly length :) yupp so i got back from msia on tues, with my accommodation and my driving course roughly settled, now i'm only left with the loose bits here and there to tie up nicely in july.

then wednesday morning was spent doing blanket stitches+crazy bag pricing in the volunteers room before rushing down to VJ to collect cert with the rest of s22 and we finished with a good round of catching up convos while having a hearty meal of german bratwurst with potatoes cooked in so many styles! (mashed, salad, wedges) thereafter we headed to marina square to attempt formal-clothes buying and resume sher's camera-hunting mission. ah and not forgetting, a big thankyou to my dear SMS buddies for the memory box! as cheesy as it sounds, my most treasured memories will be that of you guys and the times we shared being mugger-ish in geylang east library, being bleak, being slow and being floorballers/bladers/adventurers/zoolanders and all!! that's right! :))

come thursday, the SMS group headed to golden mile food center for lunch (i still would have found my way there because i carried my map you know!!) and tried the famous prawn/chilli mee which was numbingly spicy that it made poor cy tear! and i need to make a special mention of the chinchow with silkily smooth texture/consistency and the syrup/sauce/water/whateveryoucallit that was just nicely sweet! perfecto! i'm craving for a bowl now! so after the very satisfying lunch, it was destination bras basah to source for my scrapbooking materials before heading home.

FRIDAYYY!!! okay okay so you can see that i'm excited about friday and rightly so because it was a totally OWNAGE day. morning started in cgh with the charity sale for the handmade bags (and i was really happy that all three bags designed and embellished by yours truly were sold :)) very, very happy indeed) and i think we raised about 700 bucks for the home care assist scheme! less than the previous sale but still a substantial sum nonetheless! yupp then zipped home and back out to town to meet the ogls for dinner celebrations! xiaolongbaos, la mians and very lame army jokes aside, the night out was tremendously enjoyable because i haven't seen all of them in awhile and they made me try LAN gaming (albeit in a rather shoddy, blue-lit shop) for the very first time! OMG i'm like a CS convert now man.*insert* go go go! *insert* need backup! whahahaha :D tried dota as well but it was more like "huh?" because being the noob, i knew nothing about the heroes and their powers and lemuel and his cousin justin were so pro my speakers were blasting 'godlike'/'triplekill'/'unstoppable' non-stop! and i still can't fathom why i enjoyed shooting the characters in CS so much man. i think somehow, i'm a sadist at heart and by nature. tsktsk.

but i had so much fun that if i were to describe it in dota terms, it was mmmmMMMONSTER KILL!!! ^-^

anyway saturday was another day out for dimsum with the councillors (very yummy dimsum indeed, save for the xiaolongbao which tastes funny) and i think we were all stuffed by the time we met boss at PS before splitting up and heading to the arcade and then to spotlight/madewithlove/daiso(budget!!) to get even more scrapbooking stuff. then it was 65 all the way home two days in a row.

wahhh at long last i'm done man. my week in what was supposed to be a journal friendly length but oh well, if you read till the end then thankyou for your time! yupp so that was my hectic week and possibly more hectic weeks to look forward to come july.

...

life definitely is exciting now but,
rwoar and *shoooo* i don't want to feel sad about heading back home.
everybody should just kind of throw caution to the wind!!

ahh and please let introduce raymond lam in his most good-looking role ever (imo)

alfred in tvb's heart of greed!

it's a pity he cheated and died. sigh. my momma said that you can't trust/depend on good looking guys. guess it's really true ho. haha! :D

my love will get home

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 17:22:18 GMT

Title: My Love Will Get You Home
Singer: Christine Glass

If you wonder off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

...

maybe one day i'll be able to say to that special someone,
my love will get you home.
:)

nature's calling!

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 15:00:02 GMT

i know this is a little late, but alas i present to you the 5.0 zooooolanders!! (in all their animalistic-ness, if there is such a word)
haha. :D

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 14:03:54 GMT

okay brief hiatus before i get back next tues! meantime, have fun you people :) and i'm so loovin the spa scrub tiq got me! i feel as though i just underwent moulting whahaha! :D

your love alone is not enough

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 16:03:54 GMT

Your love alone -
is not enough not enough not enough
When times get tough
they get tough they get tough they get tough

Trade all your heroes in for ghosts
in for ghosts in for ghosts
They're always the one's that love you most
love you most love you most

Your love alone -
is not enough not enough not enough
It's what you felt
it's what you said what you said what you said

You said the sky would fall on you
fall on you fall on you
Through all the pain your eyes stayed Blue
they stayed Blue Baby Blue

But your love alone won't save the world
You knew the secret of the universe
Despite it all you made it worse
It left you lonely it left you cursed

You stole the sun
straight from my heart from my heart from heart
With no excuses
just fell apart fell apart fell apart

No you won't make a mess of me
mess of me mess of me
For you're as blind as a man can be
man can be man can be

I could have seen for miles and miles
I could have made you feel alive
I could have placed us in exile
I could have shown you how too cry

Your love alone is not enough
Your love alone is not enough

...

this song is so repetitive it drives me crazy. funny thing is, i have it looping on my playlist as well because i'm hopelessly addicted to it.

5 hours to go! :)

thank you

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 14:45:13 GMT

as i was looking through my keepsake box just now - all the wishes, cards, notes and pictures - i realized (again) how blessed i am to have you bunch of people in my life :)

A friend is not afraid to look at me as I really
   am. And
what that friend sees inside me doesn't bring
   harsh
judgments,
instant critical outbursts
nor the desire to put an end to our
relationship.
A friend peeks and peers into the hidden depths
    of my soul
and instantly sees that i need some
lifting of my drooping spirits,
strengthening for my weakening resolve,
laughter about the situation or at myself,
and large amounts of loving just because
I'm me.

life has never been dull with you people around <3 and i'm really thankful for two of the best presents i could ever wish for this year. thank you, and thank YOU for everything (and for the many many many more years to come i hope!)

......

yupp and watch out! (xf's nick haha) for the 5.0 zoooolanders coming your way when i finally get my hands on the pics from cy&haribo!! :D

in other news,
i also think i'm exhibiting extreme PMS. and i mean dude, that just sucks.

fly by

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 09:29:05 GMT

just like that and the weekend plus the month of may is over! june's here and that means we've only got half the year to go before we hit the streets and welcome the year 2008. such a weird notion ain't it? i confess that i've overused this phrase tons of times but i do really believe in its meaning - time always has the habit of slipping away.

any-o-how weekends are always fun when you've got friends to hang out with, especially after spending a long week couped up at home with crazyy YOUtubing marathons and thanks to menny i am now introduced to tv-links (HEROES!!!) as well! i just hope i don't turn into a REAL potato with buds sprouting from eyelets soon. actually i don't know if its buds sprouting from eyelets or eyelets sprouting from buds or neither. ahh whatever! my brain has effectively erased asexual reproduction and all that vegetative propagation crap from memory 6 months ago.

and since i wanted to write only a short post, i'll end here and say thanks to all who made the effort to ask me along for outings or cared enough to turn up. it means a lot and i appreciate it. i'm feeling angsty but i don't want to sound angsty so nevermind. i just wonder if it would make a difference to try sometimes. rahhh and i'm feeling superrr tired and aching all over from cycling yesterday and 3 on 3 floorball (where'd you ppl disappeared to?!?) this morning! :)

yupp and it's nap time.
so bye-bye, bong. hello, baby.

YOUtube is my best friend

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 15:41:43 GMT

taking a break from my drama marathon to post a little...haha self-explanatory title! and the reason(s) why are listed below

1. Iryu Team Medical Dragon!
2. The Simpsons Movie trailer!
3. Supernatural season 1 clips
4. Music Vids, more music vids and more music vids!

okay i am slowly but surely fading into the world of couch potato-ism, wait, maybe computer chair potato-ism is a more relevant term in this age. OH and i CANT leave out HEROES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! youtube oh youtube why aren't there any Heroes episodes???

also on the same movie/drama/video watching spree, i caught 50 first dates last night on AXN (lagging i know) and i think drew barrymore's Lucy is a really really really lucky woman. i can never imagine how it'll ever feel like to have someone who loves you sooo much make every effort on his part to get you to fall in love with him over and over again every single day. in a way the show really reminds me of the phrase 'you just have to fall in love with each other all over again', quoted from tony parson's man&wife, as the golden rule to making your marriage work when the cracks start to surface. in short it's just impossibly sweet and romantic!! but being practical is still key, so byebye to dreams of meeting such a mr right-guy and hello to realistic mr maybe-right. oh well.

however, in the land where YOUtube reigns king, I wouldn't mind having ASADA RYUTARO or adam sandler's HENRY as my leading man!!!! though i highly suspect menny would probably agree with me only on the former hahaha!

ah and rarely do i embed 2 YOUtube videos at one go, but this is a really beautiful song.

tree dundee bungee FREE

Tue, 29 May 2007 08:19:08 GMT

fergie's big girls don't cry is stuckstuckstuck in my head. the other day it was LP's what i've done and the other other day it was the red jumpsuit apparatus's your guardian angel. funny how my brain replays some song over and over again these days. i seriously think it has to do with the fact that i'm not providing my brain with enough intellectually stimulating stuff lately. sigh i need to start reading or playing sudoku again soon or else i'll probably be spouting random song lyrics the next time i open my mouth to tell the ban mian aunty that i want a bowl of bian mian. speaking of which xf and mabel are enjoying billy bombers now (i want a treat!!) and i need to get my butt out to orchard to meet them for POTC!!

this reminds me that life in the 21st century is really all about timing. in a sense i guess we're always trapped by the constraints of time. and i'm saying this because being a noob in the whole online tix booking process (it was my first time yest), i didn't expect to be timed for everything - from the choosing of cinema seats, to confirming the seats and sessions, and all the way to filling in my personal particulars. not that its a bad thing, but for somebody as indecisive as me, i found it incredibly disturbing to have a stopwatch ticking down the minutes and seconds right in my face when i'm contemplating where the best seats are. though i must confess that i actually felt a tweeny bit excited by the whole process because i kept thinking that there was somebody out there trying desperately to reserve the same seats as me at the the exact same time. so natural instinct is to cheong ah! and faster complete the transaction lo. so much for being paranoid. sadly that's what happens when you spend too much time trying to figure out submachine 1 2 3 4 on notdoppler.

before i end the post i need to POST some pictures taken weeks before (i have a knack for repeating the same word twice in a sentence nowadays -.-''' ) so here goes everything and nothing!

this is eastcoast-gluttoning with the beef kuay teow that we queued a freaking 30 minutes for!!

and this is head chef san hard at work on her yummylicious carbonara. power packed with loadsa meat, cream and cheese! (the picture hardly does justice to the white sauce but i guess that's because of my lousy photo taking skills -.-''')

anyway i'm feeling very happy and at peace with myself today. yupp so i won't have it any other way!

And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one